Tuesday, March 30, 2010

The One Where He Puts The Pieces Back Together...

"Everyone longs to give themselves to someone-- to have a deep soul relationship with another -- to be loved thoroughly and exclusively. But to a Christian, God says, "No, not until you are satisfied, fulfilled, and content with being loved by Me alone-- with giving yourself totally and unreservedly to Me. I love you, my child. And until you discover that only in Me is your satisfaction to be found, you will not be capable of the perfect human relationship I have planned for you. You will never be united with another until you are united with Me-- exclusive of anyone or anything else, exlusive of any other desires or longings. I want you to stop planning, stop wishing and allow Me to give you the most thrilling plan existing-- a plan you cannot imagine. I want you to have the best. Please allow Me to bring it to you. You just keep watching Me, expecting the greatest things-- keep experiencing the satisfaction that I am. Keep listening and learning the things I tell you. You just wait. That's all. Don't be anxious. Don't worry. Don't look at the things others have gotten or I have given them. Don't look at the things you want. You just keep looking off and away up to Me, or you'll miss what I want to show you.

Then, when you are ready, I'll surprise you with a love far more wonderful than any you would even dream of. You see, until you are ready, and until the one I have for you is ready at the same time-- until you are both satisfied exclusively with Me and the life I have prepared for you-- you won't be able to experience the love exemplified in your relationship with Me, and is thus, perfect love.

And dear one, I want you to have this most wonderful love. I want you to see in the flesh a picture of your relationship with Me and to enjoy materially and concretely the everlasting union of beauty, perfection, and love I offer you with, Myself. Know that I love you utterly. I am God. Believe it, and be satisfied."

-Author Unknown

These beautiful words were sent to my by my dear friend Nancy Thompson. I just recently grasped the truth and the power of what this says. Here is my story of what I've learned...

Two months ago if you had asked me to describe my life, I would tell you that it had been shattered into pieces. My world was completely and utterly ripped apart after a sudden and unexpected break up with John. This beautiful life that I had planned out for myself was gone within a blink of an eye. I was confused, shocked, and most of all angry with God. I couldn't understand why God put something so wonderful in my life, only to take it away.

After two long months of tears, pain, fear, and confusion, I finally realized this (taken from the writing above): until you discover that only in Me is your satisfaction to be found, you will not be capable of the perfect human relationship I have planned for you.

WOW... How powerful AND true are those words? Although I thought that I was finding my satisfaction in the Lord, I realized that I was looking for all my needs to be met by John. This is no way to honor God through an earthly relationship! As I looked back on my relationship with God, I realized that instead of going to my Heavenly Father, who loves me perfectly and unconditionally, to meet my needs, I was looking to a human being, who is imperfect and who will continuously fail me and leave me unsatisfied.

First, I have realized that I am in no way ready to be in a "serious" relationship with someone here on earth until I am first and foremost in a serious relationship with my Lord and Savior. My sweet, loving Father wants me to fall in love with Him first and foremost, and He will provide someone here on earth for me to love and to love me in His perfect timing.

Also, I have learned that I have to stop making huge, elaborate plans for my life. These plans that seem to be perfect keep me from being open to God's plans for my life, and when God redirects me to where He wants to be, I am left feeling confused, feeling like I have to rework the pieces of my life to find a better fit. NO! It's not my job to make plans or to work out the pieces of my life... It's GOD's job.

So this is me... letting go of the broken pieces in my life and giving them to God to put together in HIS perfect and wonderful plan for HIS glory!

Thursday, March 25, 2010

The One About Me...

thought I would take some time to update you guys on my life and what's going on!

Currently I'm living in the wonderful city of Chattanooga. Here, I am involved in Chi Omega, Campus Crusade for Christ and I intern with the youth at First Presbyterian Church... oh yeah... I'm also in school (I forget that a lot!) It's hard to say what year I am in school because of the eventful college career I've had, but I should be a junior... key words "should be." I am a nursing major and If I get accepted (which I will find out end of April or beginning of May) I will start nursing school in the fall at Aquinas College in Nashville.

I have mixed emotions about leaving Chattanooga. I know that Nashville is where the Lord is calling me to be, and I'm ready to take the next step toward nursing, but I'm so sad to leave my dear friends that I've made here. I know that saying I'll come back and visit a lot is easier said than done, but I definitely want to be intentional with my friendships. These are the people who really know me, the people that have had an influence in my spiritual growth, the people I can be myself with, and the people that love me unconditionally. My friends here in Chattanooga have impacted me more than they will ever know, and they will be truly missed.

My Chi Omega Family

CRU friends from Spring Break 2009

On a lighter note, this summer I will be returning to Camp Vesper Point... my favorite place in the entire world! I will be a counselor again, and not only will I be spending the summer with some of the greatest people I've ever met, I will also be sharing Christ and pouring into the lives of kids, which is one of the greatest passions of my heart. Camp is such an amazing experience. Although I will be sharing with the kids and teaching them about Christ, I find that I learn from them more than I could ever teach them. Seeing God move in the hearts of these kids is an amazing, heart-warming experience that I wish that everyone could have.

The view from Vesper Point

Giving my testimony

Being silly with Jackson, my youngest boy during Family Camp

My boys from Family Camp

One of my sweet campers, Kayla

My last cabin of the summer

Some of the girls at the end of the summer

A big group of us saying goodbye after a WONDERFUL summer!

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

The One Where It All Began...

Ok, so I'm new at this blogging thing, but I'm so excited to share my life with all of you bloggers out there!

I was first introduced to the world of blogging by Anna Cleland this past summer, but I didn't start exploring these shenanigans until my dear friend Kristin Mardis motivated me!

So... here it is... my first blog... short and sweet!